29/07/2017

The Month of ORD, the month of a new chapter in life, the month of surprises both good and bad, the month of struggle and finding God. FINALLY ORD!!! THE long awaited 2 years of freedom. I finally got my pink identification card back. Receive many well wishes for my future from the company. I definitely enjoy my time there such as going to the gym during lunch time, take a nap when I am tired and the endless laughter I had etc. God really did put me in a place where I did learn things and met many many people whom in some way shape the person I become today. I am truly bless and although sometimes I still curse and swear at the camp that I was in, deep inside I still think I am a lucky man to be able to make mistakes and get away with it or literally had ample of time to do what I want to do in camp. The two years was worth I guess. Thank God.

Before I ORDed, Godpa head back to New Zealand. I recalled we went to polyclinic to get 2 days MC so that I don’t have to go back to camp and spend time with him. God seems to hear my prayer to get 2 days MC. I head to the washroom to take a dump and it so happen to be my turn to have consultation with the doctor hence Godpa head in and said “sorry my son is having a really terrible stomachache and he is in the washroom”. I came back and he told me the whole summary of the event, I went in and the Oscar acting skills that God gave me didn’t come to a waste. I told the doctor I got stomach flu and he gave the MC.. YAY! I pretty much enjoy the whole time with Godpa, we always talk about nonsense but in the midst of the nonsense, he will randomly tell me stuff about God which amazes me so much. I guess I came to a point where I can talk nonstop about God because He really did a lot of amazing or should I say unexpected things for me. Godpa challenged me to do a bible fast where I don’t watch TV or surf the net or anything else except for reading the Bible and reading anything about God. I took it and hence leading to the month of struggles and finding God.

The four Virgins went to KL like finally because we had been saying that we will travel sometime soon but it never came to past. But this time it did and I thank God it did. I pretty much enjoy eating almost everything that is sold in Singapore but it was way more expensive here.  Bought a Cargo pants too. The MAC fried Chicken that they sold in KL was soooo good. I ate it almost every day in the trip and ended every night with monopoly deal. Though I saw some things I didn’t like, I thank God that he show me what I had to know. Unexpected I guess. But I thank God that in the trip that I had found a friend closer than a Brother.  The word of God stays. As much as I am disappointed, I am happy too. I remember I tried so hard not to watch TV because the fast had started on the day Godpa left. It was really tough where everyone was watching and you had to face your back to the television.  I came back after the trip feeling really lonely because I guess that’s where the real wilderness starts. It was so bad. I never felt so alone before. Before the trip, I still had my friends in the company to pass the loneliness but after the trip, the path to finding God had just started.

I took a break for a week before going full time helping my dad, learning everything that I need to know to run a BCM stall. I must admit that I had the part where  I had to wake up at 5 but I really could get use to this lifestyle. I like the part where customers come over and talk to you, I like that part where they finish the bowl clean and also the collecting of the money. I like the environment of the coffee shop. I pray that I will get better and in future, run a stall by myself. As the day pass by, I am living one day at a time. Reading the bible, talking to God and helping out at the stall. As much as I do wish Godpa come back really fast, i think this whole struggle is good for me to know where I stand and how much I would do to find God. I will be so happy if I actually see him face to face. Many questions to ask and so much to know. Encik Bala also gave me an ORD treat which I am thankful for. I have come to the end of the army chapter of my life and now, the BCM chapter officially starts. Thank God for the eventful month. I pray he continue to watch over my family and friends, I pray he sees me soon and I thank him to everything. AMEN.