03/03/2018

i have been really lazy these 2 months to keep track of my monthly blog. I headed to Iceland, Scotland and England for my post Army trip. I was glad i truly enjoy myself so much and i could say it was the BEST trip of my life. I thank God for protecting and watching over us the whole trip. i didnt want the trip to start because when it starts, it means it will end and it was something that kept me looking forward to for the past 6 months since i ORDed. I can also cancel out watching the Northern Lights and watching a Match at Old Trafford. Funny enough i enjoyed Scotland the most out of all the three countries that i went to. The castles, the hills, the people and the atmosphere was so good. I really loved it there. The best moment of the trip was walking to Arthur Hill alone where i connected with God and his beautiful creation. The weather was cold, the Hill was greenish beautiful and the song "Calvary" was playing in my playlist totally made me cry at the moment of time when i felt him there with me. I do hope i still get to travel with Godpa again. Chinese New Year was around the corner when i got back home from the trip. I felt sad that the trip ended. I felt that i could stay there forever and never come back. Perhaps why i never miss coming home was because i was feeling the sense of freedom there. During the trip, Godpa and I laughed and laughed so many times till our tears flow out. I did many things naturally which was funny to him and when i see him laugh at me, i start to laugh too. Sometimes, I still look at my phone to see what time it is in Manchester. These good times will last in my memory and heart. I cried knowing this might be the last time we travel together but i am still praying to God that there will still be one or two more trips before He take Godpa home. But i thank God still for the times we spend together and the times where we cried and laugh together. I am perhaps one of the lucky one out there who did experience what love is and love that is more than a BGR. Bless the Father, Bless Jesus and Bless the Holy Spirit. God is good and God is love. Amen!

31/12/2017

Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018.. It had been a long long ride with many ups and down. Manage to travel YAY!! The record of travelling every year from my 20s stays. Pretty much learn more about God this whole year compared to my entire life. I am glad i found a belief i can hold dearly to. Christmas came so Celebration as usual except Busted could not gather together due to work. But i am glad we are still in contact with each other frequently. I met some of the old friends to catch up which sums up the whole Dec, "Catch up".

Hopefully next year would be a good one. 23 more days till the Europe Trip. I pray that everything will go well. I do hope to get closer with God next year and i guess my theme of this year is " Finding God". Blessed year. Amen!

29/11/2017

Yay!! Birthday Month!! I guess my hype for birthday is OVER! im not as excited as i am the past 22 years. Perhaps adulthood had already hit in hard into my life. After last year, i learnt not to have high expectation. But yeah, still a pretty good month.

Met some of the army guys at Hafeez Wedding. Im glad that we manage to catch up with each other and i guess army life was idiotic, funny and a place where you laugh at the retarded things you did there. My parents brought me out to eat for my Birthday cause i wanted to eat Kang kong and durian. Dad also ordered quite a number of durian for me. I was grateful I spend some time talking to someone about God on that day itself. I hope i did make a little impact in his life. Moving on, went out with Kat for dinner at Tolidos cafe. The place is amazing and i had been going to that place every week since Godpa went back to New Zealand. Thankful for this month and Thankful for God watching over me. Blessed. Amen!

04/11/2017

Celebrated Shak's and Kat's birthday in October and pretty much just hanging out with Godpa most of the time. I am glad this was a smooth going month. Met Josh, Khairi and Stanley for Bingsu while meeting a new friend too. I was mind blown by the fact where i met this customer who launched a book of his journey about life and travelling. We clicked when we told each other about how we love spending time alone. As Godpa is heading back to New Zealand, i will be taking this time to date myself, to know more about myself and actually study the Bible. I hope i wont be making empty promises. Thank God for the month of October. Somehow i got over the birthday month thing and i am not expecting anything for my birthday like the previous years. I am happy with my life, pretty much. Amen!

08/10/2017

September was pretty smooth compared to the previous month. HIMYM group finally met up after a while. My family had a BBQ at Pasir ris Park and I booked my ticket to Iceland, Scotland Edinburgh and England Manchester. YAY!!! I been spending quite a lot of time with Godpa too. Im excited for the trip and i pray that all will go well.

Pretty much clear all the misunderstanding with the group hence we start to meet each other again. BBQ was great as the whole family gather to spend time together. It was CNY when we last had everyone gathered together. I was glad we had a good time. I also went for a class on marketing which lead to me learning a important lesson. I learn that you need a core. you can sell anything but what make you unique that people would buy from you? Hence, i learn that my core was to Give Love to people. Funny thing during class, the trainer will call out names and those who were chosen will present what their core is. Somehow I felt the Lord was telling me that the trainer was going to call out my name. My heart pumped really quickly but LOL RP gave me enough training and experience to present. True enough, the trainer said he find this person very unique and also said that he like to eat BCM hence he is calling this person out.. He called my name out. Then i was pretty surprise that a lot of them who were attending the class went "WOW", "where is your stall?".. I told them that my product that i sell is BCM and my core was to Give Love. They were impressed. Jesus really do look after me. HAHAHAH. Pretty good month and i thank God for it. AMEN!

31/08/2017

August 2017, full of ups and down. Great Grandma passed away which i kind of expected it to happen because i knew it would be a test for the fast. Godpa came back from New Zealand. YAY!! I remember crying so hard in the Library, in Godpa's room cause i just couldnt understand why my parents where leading me to confusion. All i wanted was to have a noodle stall, have a really happy family and be a good son to my parents. But i guess life dont always give you what you want. I had to fight so hard just to get these simple wishes. I was so sad for a period of time. Thank God He was around for me and Godpa's encouragement. I guess there must be a reason for me to go through all these trails and tribulation.

I havent felt such a strong anointing since that time when i was still an intern and went for the healing service. I was glad i clear things up with my parents and things got better. I am still struggling with some of my problems but i hope God solve them for me soon. Been working every day till 2pm and head out to let off steam. I guess i got use to this life style. Might be running the shop during the afternoon and night in the coming months. We see!! Thank God for the month, Thank God for his love, Thank God for the good and bad times. I already met 4 new people who i am still at shock at base on how we met but yeah. I look forward to more of these impromptu random chats from God.Amen!

29/07/2017

The Month of ORD, the month of a new chapter in life, the month of surprises both good and bad, the month of struggle and finding God. FINALLY ORD!!! THE long awaited 2 years of freedom. I finally got my pink identification card back. Receive many well wishes for my future from the company. I definitely enjoy my time there such as going to the gym during lunch time, take a nap when I am tired and the endless laughter I had etc. God really did put me in a place where I did learn things and met many many people whom in some way shape the person I become today. I am truly bless and although sometimes I still curse and swear at the camp that I was in, deep inside I still think I am a lucky man to be able to make mistakes and get away with it or literally had ample of time to do what I want to do in camp. The two years was worth I guess. Thank God.

Before I ORDed, Godpa head back to New Zealand. I recalled we went to polyclinic to get 2 days MC so that I don’t have to go back to camp and spend time with him. God seems to hear my prayer to get 2 days MC. I head to the washroom to take a dump and it so happen to be my turn to have consultation with the doctor hence Godpa head in and said “sorry my son is having a really terrible stomachache and he is in the washroom”. I came back and he told me the whole summary of the event, I went in and the Oscar acting skills that God gave me didn’t come to a waste. I told the doctor I got stomach flu and he gave the MC.. YAY! I pretty much enjoy the whole time with Godpa, we always talk about nonsense but in the midst of the nonsense, he will randomly tell me stuff about God which amazes me so much. I guess I came to a point where I can talk nonstop about God because He really did a lot of amazing or should I say unexpected things for me. Godpa challenged me to do a bible fast where I don’t watch TV or surf the net or anything else except for reading the Bible and reading anything about God. I took it and hence leading to the month of struggles and finding God.

The four Virgins went to KL like finally because we had been saying that we will travel sometime soon but it never came to past. But this time it did and I thank God it did. I pretty much enjoy eating almost everything that is sold in Singapore but it was way more expensive here.  Bought a Cargo pants too. The MAC fried Chicken that they sold in KL was soooo good. I ate it almost every day in the trip and ended every night with monopoly deal. Though I saw some things I didn’t like, I thank God that he show me what I had to know. Unexpected I guess. But I thank God that in the trip that I had found a friend closer than a Brother.  The word of God stays. As much as I am disappointed, I am happy too. I remember I tried so hard not to watch TV because the fast had started on the day Godpa left. It was really tough where everyone was watching and you had to face your back to the television.  I came back after the trip feeling really lonely because I guess that’s where the real wilderness starts. It was so bad. I never felt so alone before. Before the trip, I still had my friends in the company to pass the loneliness but after the trip, the path to finding God had just started.

I took a break for a week before going full time helping my dad, learning everything that I need to know to run a BCM stall. I must admit that I had the part where  I had to wake up at 5 but I really could get use to this lifestyle. I like the part where customers come over and talk to you, I like that part where they finish the bowl clean and also the collecting of the money. I like the environment of the coffee shop. I pray that I will get better and in future, run a stall by myself. As the day pass by, I am living one day at a time. Reading the bible, talking to God and helping out at the stall. As much as I do wish Godpa come back really fast, i think this whole struggle is good for me to know where I stand and how much I would do to find God. I will be so happy if I actually see him face to face. Many questions to ask and so much to know. Encik Bala also gave me an ORD treat which I am thankful for. I have come to the end of the army chapter of my life and now, the BCM chapter officially starts. Thank God for the eventful month. I pray he continue to watch over my family and friends, I pray he sees me soon and I thank him to everything. AMEN.