The Month of ORD, the month of a new chapter in life, the
month of surprises both good and bad, the month of struggle and finding God.
FINALLY ORD!!! THE long awaited 2 years of freedom. I finally got my pink
identification card back. Receive many well wishes for my future from the
company. I definitely enjoy my time there such as going to the gym during lunch
time, take a nap when I am tired and the endless laughter I had etc. God really
did put me in a place where I did learn things and met many many people whom in
some way shape the person I become today. I am truly bless and although
sometimes I still curse and swear at the camp that I was in, deep inside I
still think I am a lucky man to be able to make mistakes and get away with it
or literally had ample of time to do what I want to do in camp. The two years
was worth I guess. Thank God.
Before I ORDed, Godpa head back to New Zealand. I recalled
we went to polyclinic to get 2 days MC so that I don’t have to go back to camp
and spend time with him. God seems to hear my prayer to get 2 days MC. I head
to the washroom to take a dump and it so happen to be my turn to have
consultation with the doctor hence Godpa head in and said “sorry my son is
having a really terrible stomachache and he is in the washroom”. I came back
and he told me the whole summary of the event, I went in and the Oscar acting
skills that God gave me didn’t come to a waste. I told the doctor I got stomach
flu and he gave the MC.. YAY! I pretty much enjoy the whole time with Godpa, we
always talk about nonsense but in the midst of the nonsense, he will randomly
tell me stuff about God which amazes me so much. I guess I came to a point
where I can talk nonstop about God because He really did a lot of amazing or
should I say unexpected things for me. Godpa challenged me to do a bible fast
where I don’t watch TV or surf the net or anything else except for reading the
Bible and reading anything about God. I took it and hence leading to the month
of struggles and finding God.
The four Virgins went to KL like finally because we had been
saying that we will travel sometime soon but it never came to past. But this
time it did and I thank God it did. I pretty much enjoy eating almost
everything that is sold in Singapore but it was way more expensive here. Bought a Cargo pants too. The MAC fried
Chicken that they sold in KL was soooo good. I ate it almost every day in the
trip and ended every night with monopoly deal. Though I saw some things I didn’t
like, I thank God that he show me what I had to know. Unexpected I guess. But I
thank God that in the trip that I had found a friend closer than a Brother. The word of God stays. As much as I am
disappointed, I am happy too. I remember I tried so hard not to watch TV
because the fast had started on the day Godpa left. It was really tough where
everyone was watching and you had to face your back to the television. I came back after the trip feeling really
lonely because I guess that’s where the real wilderness starts. It was so bad.
I never felt so alone before. Before the trip, I still had my friends in the
company to pass the loneliness but after the trip, the path to finding God had just
started.
I took a break for a week before going full time helping my
dad, learning everything that I need to know to run a BCM stall. I must admit
that I had the part where I had to wake
up at 5 but I really could get use to this lifestyle. I like the part where
customers come over and talk to you, I like that part where they finish the
bowl clean and also the collecting of the money. I like the environment of the
coffee shop. I pray that I will get better and in future, run a stall by
myself. As the day pass by, I am living one day at a time. Reading the bible,
talking to God and helping out at the stall. As much as I do wish Godpa come
back really fast, i think this whole struggle is good for me to know where I
stand and how much I would do to find God. I will be so happy if I actually see
him face to face. Many questions to ask and so much to know. Encik Bala also
gave me an ORD treat which I am thankful for. I have come to the end of the
army chapter of my life and now, the BCM chapter officially starts. Thank God
for the eventful month. I pray he continue to watch over my family and friends,
I pray he sees me soon and I thank him to everything. AMEN.
